“You have caused me more pain that I’ve ever been in my life. You have caused my children pain. I hope you rot one day for what you have done to me and my kids … I hope you live with pain and shame and guilt for the rest of your life,” killer Jessica Edens wrote to her husband, Ben, according to the Greenville News.
Edens, 36, was locked in a nasty custody dispute with Ben over their children, aged 5 and 9, when she went on the killing spree. Ben had been cheating on her with Meredith Rahme, 28, for about a year, Edens told police in the days before the bloodshed.
She shot love rival Ms Rahme while the woman sat in the driver’s seat of her car in a Greenville parking garage about 5pm on July 13.
She hen called her husband to gloat.
“Everyone you love is gone. Do you hear me? I’m about to be gone too,” she said.
Two hours later, authorities discovered Edens and her two children dead inside her locked-and-running SUV at a garage not far from where Ms Rahme was killed.
The bitter note to Edens’ husband was found inside the SUV along with two other handwritten notes: one addressed to her parents and sister and the other titled “Last Will and Testament.”
“I am so sorry for the pain I am causing all of you. You’ve all always been there for me and I love you all so much. I know what I have done is selfish, but I cannot live with this pain any longer,” the letter to her family reportedly read.
“I just cannot handle it. It is too much. It hurts too much. I will no longer be in pain and my children will no longer hurt either. I am so-so sorry. I love you all.”
The notes were released by the Pickens County Sheriff’s Office in response to a Freedom of Information request filed by the Greenville News.
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